Design of My Life

Little bit about myself

Hey there! I am Zeynep and this is my first time interacting with you so I thought introducing myself and telling my story would make a good start. I am a 20-year-old college student who studies International Relations and tries to find herself as time goes by. But let’s start from day one of my life to see how I got there and what made me become the person I am. I was born in Denizli, Turkey at December 4, 1998. I am the second child of my family as an addition to my brother. Oh, did I told you that I have the same birthday with my mom? Like literally same date and even same the day, Friday! Even though I am originally from İstanbul I was born in Denizli. The reason behind this is my fathers’ job that requires constant moving in the country. So I spend the first 3 years of my life in Denizli but when I was 3 years old, we moved to Cyprus. Where I started my education life. Oh, the beginning of my favorite thing in the world, education… I think living at Cyprus had been really nice to me, all I can remember is good memories. My dad’s workplace was just right next to where we live and everyday after school I would just go to his workplace. I always loved to go wherever he works, but this place felt even more special to me. After having lovely 3 years at Cyprus the day has come and we moved to İstanbul and that will be the last place we moved as a family, but I don’t know where life would take me to move next. So, I was 6 and I started to primary school. I can swear that the education life felt like hell on the inside till university, even though I might not made it seem that way. As I remember I was really an extroverted person till maybe finishing the elementary school. But what happened to change this might be the effects of my education life. I have never been a ‘bad’ or ‘unsuccessful’ student but standing up to my parent’s expectations or to be the person that they have dreamt didn’t quite happen as they have wished so I have always been through a state of fight and arguments with them. But with these situations I started becoming more of an anxious person and shared less then I used to. I still am really friendly and talkative but, in the inside, I am full of anxiety. So maybe I will overcome this with my blog. If I made this introduction sound weird, I didn’t mean to. I am just trying give a background to what made who I am. So, back to my education life I changed 7 schools. But what I believe is moving around and always changing schools in my life made me a person who gets adapted to changing situation, places and environments easily. With finishing high school, I had to make a decision on what I should study but this was a difficult question. I wanted to be a Tv presenter, to be in the media industry or study psychology. But I didn’t study any of them, with my future anxiety I needed something less specific and something made me feel more secure, so I ended up choosing International Relations. So, in short I can say that I am a social, friendly, very free-spirited person who wants to find herself. My next mission is having a masters at abroad and build myself a life but that’s another story that I will tell about later. But to finish this off I would tell you my favorite word on earth which I think it would tell a lot about me, Hiraeth. The closest translation to the English means a feeling of homesickness for a home to which you cannot return, or for a home which may have never been. So, with the search of who I am, I am also on a search for my home that I have never been before. Please feel free to join my journey, with lots of love,

Zeynep.