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Rhythm of Life

The Sound of Your Emotions

Have you ever had thoughts about how your life would sound if it was a rhythm? Would it be peaceful? Or would it feel like it is in a rush, like really fast? Maybe something intense, from the kind that gives you chills. In my case it is hard to tell how it would sound. But I think it should have ups and downs, or even parts where the music stops.

-Ups for every time something new happens, every time you explore, every time your stomach hurts because of laughter.

-Downs for the times that you just stare the floor where you don’t even know what you are thinking, maybe daydreaming or maybe simply nothing. Or for the times your life is steady, everything is in order, where you feel like everything works well for you.

But the rhythm should stop for the times that such a drastic thing happens that you can’t even understand what happened, you know, for the times where you felt like the world stopped for a moment, in a good or bad way. What kind of emotions do you feel throughout your life? Are you an emotionally stable person or not? Are you anxious or calm? These features of yours are the key for the rhythm of your life. You might be going through very similar things in your life with someone else. But it doesn’t feel same to you. It is because who you are. Your rhythm is not only formed from the things happens to you but instead it is how you take them, how you feel about them. So, what would your life, your emotions sound like?

My Style of Living

Highlights of my life

My Emotions Through Highlights of my Life

Anyone else needs to set ‘don’t think too much’ as a daily reminder? I do. When I think about the major highlights of my life, I would start with my exchange experience. For so many years I knew that being an exchange student was one thing I have always wanted. The way it would give me the change to test myself if I am fit for my dream life, live in an international environment, to see what it is like to live, be a student in a different place than I am used to. But when the time came to actually do this, my thoughts made me hesitate and take a step back from what I dreamed of. I started to overthink about every little detail, and I got the feeling of it was getting harder to get out of my comfort zone, even that it was the one thing I wanted most. So, putting too much thought on everything, making things harder for myself was very present. It almost made me took my application back, which little did I know it would cause me to miss the best experience of my life.

So, my feelings were full of telling myself let things be, not think too much about every detail, not make things harder than they are, so I could enjoy whatever was happening. But when I think about which emotion was also present at my highlights, the feeling of desire to explore was also very present. Even though overthinking and constantly stressing looked like they overshadow everything else, my main motivation was always my need of explore. A year ago, I decided to have an exchange semester and explored places, people, cultures. And I welcomed everything that came with it good or bad, I was doing what I wanted. Now I am in state where I can call this as a turning point as well. I am a student at my last year and now it is time for me to explore what I actually want to do with my life. The part of my life where I knew what is going to happen next is about to end with graduating. So, it is time for me to see what I actually want to do in my life next, what I love, what I am good at, where I want to be. So, I will be busy exploring myself and desires in life so I can give an answer to these questions. How were you feeling at the turning points of your life?